I’m Baccccccccck!!

Hey!!! It’s been so long since i’ve been on here.!! Smh…I have neglected my blog baby long enough. Sooo much has happened since I lasted poured my heart onto my keyboard. For one, I completely surrendered my heart and got rid of a 4 year load I had on my shoulders. As much as I would love to blame EVERYTHING on him, and hate his stinkin guts *in my lil rascals voice* lol…I had every opportunity to walk away. I just didn’t. It’s amazing how overpowering the heart can be and make you ignore all logic. Anywho I did it and as soon as I closed that door and decided my only focus for 2014 would be my career and improving my relationship with God, I met my Boaz <3. I am so protective of my relationship so I won’t go into detail, but i’m sure as my heart leads me, I will reveal more about him. 

What else has changed? Well I am knee deep in attempting a full time career change. I’m finally at a point where I would prefer to like my job over a job that pays very well. Had you asked me 2 years ago, if I would ever feel like way, I would’ve told you HAIL NAW! lol However, i’m growing and my priorities are changing soooo much. Money is no longer my only motivation and i’m so excited (and extremely nervous) about this new venture. 

Well I think thats it for now, hopefully this was enough to tie you over until my next REAL blog. : ) Stay tuned! I promise to never leave you this long again. *Besos*

Dreaming With A Broken Heart- John Mayer [Lyrics] - YouTube

I think going to sleep is the hardest part…you can’t escape your hearts desires there…💔

Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.

Andrea Gibson  (via leeislike)

Love this…

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Fear is a Liar…

Stepping out on faith and following your dreams has to be one of the scariest things EVER. However, I keep getting subtle confirmations that its all going to worth it in the end. I’m so excited to see where God is going to take me on this journey and thankful for the encouragement he gives along the way. Love…

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Morning Motivation

"It seems to me that most people have vast potential. Most people can do extraordinary things if they have the confidence or take the risks. Yet most people don’t." - Philip Adams

Let yourself be great! You are the ONLY person that can keep you from fulfilling your dreams…get out of your own way and see what happens : )

But how will I know who my soul mate is? By taking risks. By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.

Paulo Coelho

If you believe in what you are doing, then let nothing hold you up in your work. Much of the best work of the world has been done against seeming impossibilities. The thing is to get the work done

Dale Carnegie

True…

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Putting pen to paper, or in this case, fingers to keyboard has been a lot harder for me lately. The motivation to express how I’m feeling, vent, or just release a little comic relief has been non-existent. So I guess this post may just be full of nothing lol but it’s a start right? I step in the right direction of writing again.
Have you ever just felt blah? Not extremely happy but not sad either. Just straddling the emotional fence? Honestly at first I welcomed the feeling of not feeling. It was a nice alternative to the emotional rollercoaster we as women can typically put ourselves on. I wasn’t wasting tissue or smearing makeup on my favorite t-shirt wiping away tears. I could still crack jokes and laugh for hours with my friends but when everyone was gone and I was by myself, I just felt nothing. Do we always have to feel one way of the other? I did find that I wasn’t motivated to do the things that I needed to do anymore. I wanted to continue the carefree feeling and that crossed over to every aspect of my life. While I made sure my home and work was taken care of, everything else took a backseat. Maybe God is telling me that I need to reshift my priorities…

Sitting here writing these feelings out is kind of overwhelming (here comes that rollercoaster -_____- lol)

I welcome any thoughts or advice…although I’m not sure if this is one of those posts lol Until next time….