Putting pen to paper, or in this case, fingers to keyboard has been a lot harder for me lately. The motivation to express how I’m feeling, vent, or just release a little comic relief has been non-existent. So I guess this post may just be full of nothing lol but it’s a start right? I step in the right direction of writing again.
Have you ever just felt blah? Not extremely happy but not sad either. Just straddling the emotional fence? Honestly at first I welcomed the feeling of not feeling. It was a nice alternative to the emotional rollercoaster we as women can typically put ourselves on. I wasn’t wasting tissue or smearing makeup on my favorite t-shirt wiping away tears. I could still crack jokes and laugh for hours with my friends but when everyone was gone and I was by myself, I just felt nothing. Do we always have to feel one way of the other? I did find that I wasn’t motivated to do the things that I needed to do anymore. I wanted to continue the carefree feeling and that crossed over to every aspect of my life. While I made sure my home and work was taken care of, everything else took a backseat. Maybe God is telling me that I need to reshift my priorities…
Sitting here writing these feelings out is kind of overwhelming (here comes that rollercoaster -_____- lol)
I welcome any thoughts or advice…although I’m not sure if this is one of those posts lol Until next time….